From time to time, the sad and hurtful images appear within my dreams and mind. They leave me both torn and devastated. I remember seeing Tara for the last time on that day… The sadness and horror in her eyes… knowing that she was going… I had another one of these dreams just last night. It was like a flash back as if it were only yesterday that I watched her go. Holding her hand and crying… telling her for the last time that I love her… Knowing that I will never see her again…

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Returning to the past and holding you in my arms once again… Watching you smile and making me the happiest person in the world… Spending time with you and enjoying every moment we share… Loving you more then ever as we live this life together… Waking up and realizing that it was only a dream… Looking at your picture everyday and remembering it all…  Writing these poems for you and sitting alone in my cold room… Wishing my Tara was still here…

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Save Tara… it was  the first thought, explanation, and song composed that I could relate to about losing the woman I love… I continue to keep the memories of Tara alive and have done so for a little over nine years now. It truly does make me happy to hold on to these memories, and I would love to hold on to them for another nine years and longer.

I created this video for you Tara. Your love, kindness, and happiness will never be forgotten. I will always love and keep you in my memory until I breathe my last breath…

There are days in my life where I feel that all hope is lost and nothing seems to matter. However, when I think of you, I know that there is still a meaning to this life. I miss you dearly Tara… I hope in another lifetime we will be together once again, for nothing would make me more happier then having you around.

This is another photo of the ocean Tara and I went to. I love this photo because the angle in which it was taken captures a lot of the scenery.

I can’t help but imagine how different my world would have been if you were still here, Tara. Perhaps we would have been married and started our own family by now. I would have loved to spend an entire lifetime and eternity with you. Unfortunately, the harsh realities of life can sometimes be sad and unforgiving… I know for certain that this tragedy will never leave me, but I will always be happy to keep you in my memories until the day I take my last breath and beyond.

We met and loved one another. Faraway you are… Perhaps in another lifetime we can be together once again. Until then… I will always remember you.

The world I once used to know… It all collapsed before my very own eyes… The love… The Happiness… It was all taken away… My love, my angel, my world… She’s gone… Things will never be the same… Hopelessness… Devastation… Sadness… All I know is tragedy… Tara… If only she was still here… Then maybe my world would’ve been different…

I used to really enjoy cuddling on the couch beside Tara and watching movies. We liked watching comedy and action-based films. We would even sometimes fall asleep holding each other.  I loved spending time with Tara, for it was worth more than anything in the world to me… I remember her laugh, her smile, and everything else. I wish she was still here today…